Getting back on track

Well, it looks like we may be on the road to recovery.  We still haven’t really talked about the current state of our arrangement, but at this point I’m not sure we really need to.  I think we both see that we just haven’t been putting enough effort into it to make it fun for both of us.

The renewed effort started shortly before dinner as my wife pointed out to me that the dish washer needed to be unloaded.  ”That’s YOUR job”, she pointed out to me.  At dinner, and through the night she seemed to have me get things for her more than she has recently.

Finally she had me come to bed with her where she had her way and when she was done I was left lovingly denied (that’s four weeks without release for those counting).  As she put it she “took what she wanted” and was done.  I got dressed and went to get her some water and medicine.  I returned to the room and handed them to her as she sat in the bed.  

“Wouldn’t you rather be kneeling”?  It was more of a statement than a question and I think kind of sums up the recent situation.

Hopefully we can continue to get back on track.  It’s going to be very difficult over this summer as I’ll be working most nights and two nights a week I’ll be working very, very late into the early morning.  It will leave me tired and cranky and stressed.  Perhaps on my few nights off she’ll be using me as she sees fit.  I certainly hope so.