Busy Busy

Well, things have been very busy around here.  I’m out most nights working right now so we have had very little alone time.  We are trying to make the most of our together time, however.  We are trying to spend more time with the kids actually doing things instead of just sitting around the house.

Unfortunately that means we haven’t had the time to get into any kinky action and still have very limited intimacy.  To top it off I’m kind of in an “Alpha” mode as I’m working nights with my partners.  It’s very difficult for me to switch between the need to be a more dominant personality at work and a more submissive role at home.  I’ve decided to just accept it and when the bulk of the project is finished in a month or so I’ll be able to get back to a more normal routine (hope hope hope).

I can tell my wife is getting a little aggravated about the situation, but I think she knows it’s temporary and likely unavoidable.  The house work is suffering but I’m trying to keep up with the yard work.  She also seems to be a little more testy with me at times and recently snapped at me.  She had pointed out that I had gotten another doctor bill that I had been told to take care of.  I pointed out that I had taken care of it and had told them we would be mailing in payments.  She snapped at me about needing to tell her these things.  I’m fairly certain I had, but I knew better than to talk back.  The toughest part about that was that I wasn’t in any kind of submissive mind set so initially I felt angry.  I didn’t say anything and I don’t think I showed any anger, but I didn’t like feeling that way.

In the past I’ve talked about how chastity effects me over time.  Well, that seems to have changed recently.  Before I seemed to be really horny for about ten days after a release and then the horniness would taper off and eventually be replaced by a nearly overwhelming desire to not orgasm.  After waiting five weeks this last time I of course was praying to be made to wait at least six weeks or even two whole months.  My mind was in an incredibly submissive state and the night of my release my wife was being very dominant and a bit kinky.  When she finally allowed me an orgasm I felt a “drop off” for the first time.  All sense of submissiveness was gone.  I didn’t want to do anything but just lay there.  It was horrible!  For the next 10 days where I’d normally be super horny and thinking about having another orgasm most of the time I instead didn’t even think about it.  I didn’t feel horny and thoughts of cumming again didn’t even cross my mind.  Then a couple of nights ago it seemed to hit me out of the blue.  The last two days I’ve been incredibly horny and I’m starting to feel more submissive again (although as I said before it probably will be suppressed as I finish this project).